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What is Navigating the Freefall?

Navigating the Freefall is what happens when one tries to control the uncontrollable. It’s a state of being afraid of the moment, of what is. It’s a lack of acceptance of what is natural. It’s a push against the grand design.

Imagine taking a leap out of an air-plane, but suddenly being like - "no, I'm going back up” and spending the rest of the sky-dive trying to make an effort to get back in the plane. “I'll go sideways, and then to the left, and then 400 meters north, but for God's sake I'm not going down!”

The irony of this album is that, not only do the songs capture this “out of control” feeling, but the album itself was an out-of-control freefall, and one that I tried to navigate and make perfect for years.

I started working on this album right after I released my first album called "Bloom" all the way back in 2018. It went through a full 5 iterations, with the final version of the album featuring only a single song from the first version. Everything else was rejected through my perfectionist attitude and my "I'm-not-good-enough" mentality. I've been working on that since, hence why the album is finally done. I said “Enough is Enough”, this is as good as it will ever be.

Deep, Rich, and Sad

But here's the truth: This album is heavy. It has to do with unrequited love, mental health issues, addiction, depression, anxiety, suicide, grief and loss. There are moments of ups and downs, but it is a heavy, deep, and sad piece of music.

Today, I am in a much better place now than I was when I was personally going through these emotions between 2018-2022, when most of the songs were created.

To be honest, it’s weird to release this album today. I don’t really resonate with the songs anymore- but that’s not the point of releasing it. At some point, I did resonate with these songs, and so if I can share something that connects to at least one other person through music - that is the point of sharing this album.

All this to be said- the album is beautiful. It is touching. There are moments of hope. It hits all the notes of a cohesive piece of art.

Inspirations and Thank Yous

Lastly, I wanted to share some of the musical inspirations and important mentions in the creation of this album:

• James Blake - inspired the musical timbre of the songs “Who am I”, “Do You Love Your Mind”, and the vocals and songs throughout the album in general. Highly recommend his music.

• Frank Ocean - inspired the musical timbre of the songs “Walk Away”, “Contagious”, and“Synchrodestiny”.

• Tame Impala - inspired the musical timbre of the songs “My Love” and “Satisfaction”

• Porter Robinson - inspired the musical timbre of the song “Together We’ll Grow”

• Trayne Hulbert - a friend I made in San Luis Obsipo, who provided me with the name of the album, and many deep conversations on society, love, and the universe.

• Adam Massini and Sage Bergerson - both collaborators on the album featuring their vocals in “Walk Away” and “December’s Song” respectively. Thank you both.

• Shania - My ex-girlfriend who provided me with support, love, inspiration and many valuable lessons during the genesis of the album. Thank you.

• Jonathan and Benjamin - my brothers who are not only inspirations to me, but both have musical backgrounds, and have put up with an immeasurable amount of times me telling them “I’ve got this cool album that I’m going to release soon”.

• Danny Colfax Mallon - my piano teacher towards the end of high-school who told me I could make up my own song to play at the recital, as long as I wrote out the chord charts and made it into a real song. Thank you for giving me the space to explore my creativity on the piano. This is the result of your open-mindedness.

• Nathan Sholl - My longest childhood friend who helped me develop my mixing abilities and listened to many demos of this album with valuable feedback. Nathan is a dubstep and bass producer under the name “Twizzled”

• Jeff Minter - The reason why this album is being released. He was the one who listened to it in it’s final demo form in early 2024 and said- “David this is beautiful and needs to released. There’s some work to do, but it’s 90% there. Just do it”. Jeff produces music under the name “Circular Illusion”

1 - My Love

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You’ve got the midnight moon
Over your eyes
Feeling love ain’t new 
For your eyes 

You’re my love, my love, my love x4

Loving you was easy when it’s love at first sight
It never crossed my mind that it just wasn’t right
Dived in deep and put my heart on the line
But baby when will you get your body to love mine?
Patience never hurt me when I see your light
But baby I’ve been waiting every day and night
Seems like your always caught up in your mind
But if you have to think then the love ain’t right

Oh, I love you for my life
What do I do if you can’t love? 

But nothing will change your mind 
I’m fighting to feel alive
I won’t let you walk on the line
Cause nothing won’t change your mind

Oh my love, won’t you be right by my side forever?
But nothing will change your mind x4

2 - Walk Away

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I know it’s just not your day
Put your hands up and you walk away 
But I hate when I act this way
Can’t control myself and I cause you pain

In the water and I’m flowing and I’m sinking and I’m floating
And I’m massive in this ocean it’s a whale of a time
I have hydras in my poems 
But their loosing all that’s potent
It’s secretion or avulsion
I’m repairing my mind

I had to take a trip, Let go of those who wronged me 
I had to get a grip cause I was feeling like a zombie
Let go of what I lost and focus on what I’m becoming
Be a phantom in the frost, or the moss that is evolving

Evolving till the final forms
Sedated now I’m sentient
Been filling up my tanks
It’s about time that I empty it
I move with some acceleration
Through the depths of hate with patience
Feel this time is delegate
I’ll hold on to my temperament

And we pull up with the whole team
I Ken Fulk no me
We low key
Been ill since ’03
We toasty
So Clean
I woke up and I chose me

Oh I can’t lie
I have something on my mind
If, if, if you, you, need, need time and space
Just just just just ask and I’ll walk away

Walk away, walk away, walk away, walk away
Take your time, Take your time, Take your time
I’m Sorry!
Walk away, walk away, walk away, walk away
Take your time, Take your time, Take your time
I’m Sorry!

Ha! I feel trapped going through this maze and act
And like I don’t know what to do while drowning in these artifacts
These relics of a lost time, has to be a throw away
Managing my time and space and I can’t wait to go away
But oh delay this rosey place just overlays this golden state
Looking for a hot meal but what I’ve got’s the coldest plate
I chose to wait, it’s no debate, this ocean lake or river pond
Spirals like a Cinnabon so till I’m gone I’m living on.

And I’ve been trying to, just be myself around you  
But my heart’s beating faster, something is after us.
 
I’ve been waiting waiting waiting, for this feeling you’ve been bringing
But its fleeting fleeting fleeting, I’m just dancing around a feeling
Let’s talk about it, not just walk away about it
But it can’t be talked about if you can’t be around talk
 
And why am I driving shopping carts into your babe? 
I’m tired of feeling like I need to compensate
All I want is to feel like you love me the same
But nothing seems to draw you in its driving me insane

And we pull up with the whole team
I Ken Fulk no me
We low key
Been ill since ’03
We toasty
So Clean
I woke up and I chose me

3 - Contagious

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I never talk about
How I miss our little conversations all night
Bringing such delight X2

Down low, haven’t been shown
How deep it really goes
But I know that I’m awesome though
And it takes time to grow

Been waiting for so long now
For your face to finally show
Companions for life I know
Waiting to love you

I can feel contagious
Never mind our ages
If you’re vibing with the feeling in my heart 
Then it doesn’t matter how old we’ve grown apart does it? x2

4 - Niya

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And I'm feeling all alone 
Searching for something to hold on
And I'm feeling on my own 
Desperate for love's sensations

And I was destined to love you
And I love to spend my time with you 
Can we be in the purple space together?
Forget that black and white is there altogether
I love my life with you

I want to know
Are you all alone?
And I've got to know 
Do you love me so?
When it sounds like

La la la, la la la, la la la I can taste the love
It's okay, it's okay If our love doesn't break your bones
La la la, la la la, la la la Pick me up when I'm feeling down
It's okay, it's okay If you don't know how

I'm here for you, darling 
Try not to smile
Cause I know that it's not easy 
You and I we are flying
Above the world at large
Hovering over all the bullshit 

I'm here for you, darling 
Try not to smile
Cause I know that it's not easy 
You and I we are flying
Above the world at large
Hovering over all the bullshit 

5 - Who am I?

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Another day goes by
Another day goes by
Where I am asking
Who am I?

Who am I?
I feel paralyzed
Like I'm in ice
Can't feel my arms
Can't feel my own eyes

It's Who I am
It's Who I am
It's Who I am x2

Not gonna change for you
Because it's who I am

It's Who I am
It's Who I am
It's Who I am x2

I'm just confused as shit
It's just who I am

It's Who I am
It's Who I am
It's Who I am

I'm just confused as shit
It's just who I am

6 - December’s Song (feat. Sage Bergerson)

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Silence at the first snow
Violence out the window
I watched you walk away and I asked you please don't go
It's getting cold out there
And the city lights don't shine in the fog
They turn into balls of light and float away

And which would you choose
Between balls of light and a routine day?
With either you can't lose
But I'm either with you or I'm miles away
Girl I miss you
That's why it's so hard to say
Girl I love you
But I need to find myself today
Today, today

But you know that this tune's gotta bottle it up
To wait, to wait, to wait for you

In the springtime when the girls all come outside to play
Where are you babe?
Where are you babe?
Where are you babe?
And I'm wearing shorts and it's 45 and I'm at the bus stop

And the slush outside on the street waves
It's a waterfall and I'm sideways in my heart for you
Why did you go?
In the summertime when the girls all come outside to play, babe
And I'm looking to the backs of people and I don't recognize a single one
A single one
And I'm trying to get away and get to you my babe

I remember
The way it felt like
To hold another

7 - Satisfaction

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Come a little closer, through the lies 
The pain never hurt this much to realize
Come a little closer so I see your eyes 
I'm trying to hold back all of my lies
I'm trying to hold back all of my lies

Gonna fix my life, gonna get it on beat 
Why do I say that when I know I'll cheat?
Gonna hit the vape, that's all I need
Just to, to fall in satisfaction
Gonna fix my life, gonna get it on beat 
Why do I say that when I know I'll cheat?
Gonna hit the vape, that's all I need
Just to, to fall in satisfaction
Satisfaction

Gonna live my life, gonna make mistakes 
Can I hit your vape, there's no escape
Why do I say that when I know it's fake
I do things just to fall in satisfaction
On life it goes

8 - Together We’ll Grow

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Well now's not the time
Without hurting our best friend
And I know it's hard to find the words to say
It's okay, nothing comes that easily, babe
Especially internal peace
The only way is through it
By embracing the aversion and working on it everyday
Holding yourself in that way
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh


I'm not at all a bit worried
Cause I know in time we'll flourish
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
And even though you haven't told me
I know that you love me deeply

You and me
I'll give you all you really need
Together we'll grow old
Together we will grow

You and me
We'll be dancing in our harmony
Together we'll grow old
Together we will grow

9 - Synchrodestiny

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And everyday, it feels the same
I’ve got a string attached to my heart
Ah… I miss it 
The feelings of the sun rays upon me

Oh what is going on?
I text but you don’t respond
What the hell is going on?
Is it something wrong with me?
Is this our synchrodestiny?

And I know that, I know that I’m not the only one
To feel like I just don’t belong
And I know that, I know that I’m not the only one
To keep holding onto all the pain that once belonged

Oh-ooh, Oh-ooh x4

It’s time, I uncover the treasures of my shadow and guide me
It’s time, I uncover the treasures of my shadows and let them guide me x3

Wo-ohhh, oh-ohhh x2

Hey yo! My life underway now.
Independent kind of vibe till I say no.  
Gonna put my own stride on the street 
And ride that feeling in my life till the pain goes
It’s the kind of vibe I’ll nurture  
Thoughts and patterns recognize the future   
It’s all fucked up at the park
Haunted by the loneliness brought on by a Friday night

Diving Turning Finding Waiting x4

I thought I knew the less I know the better it goes 
Too emotional
I’m too emotional x2

10 - Red and Green

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Black ephemeral beats I’m making fire
You’ll understand, it long past ten
Out to find an ocean to surround you
Come back to me, its time for bed

Red and green lights glimmer in the distance
Upon our feet waves cash ashore 
Why can’t we talk about our distance?
Between our beats, can’t last no more
 
Finding cover deep within our shadows
Finding cover deep within our shadows

Navigating the Freefall 
Navigating the Freefall

I hear voices in the distance
I hear voices in my head like you

It was never my discern
To complicate things past return to darkness
But Red and Green lights blink as distant rays of light, 
Bouncing off my heart into the silence  

But it was never my concern  
To complicate things past return to darkness
But Red and Green lights blink as distant rays of light, 
Bouncing off my heart into the silence

11 - Do You Love Your Mind?

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Oh-ohhhh 
Oh-ohhhh

Do you love your mind? 
How can you love mine, 
When I’m not trying to pretend that I’m fine?
Oh Nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing pulls me closer to the ground
Don’t want to move around

Do you love your mind? 
How can you love mine, 
When I’m not trying to pretend that I’m fine?
Oh Nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing pulls me closer to the ground
Don’t want to move around

I don’t know why I am this way
Anxiety crippling my day
I’m so tired of living through my screen
Comparing who I want to be

Do you love your mind? 
How can you love mine, 
When I’m not trying to pretend that I’m fine?
Oh Nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing pulls me closer to the ground
Don’t want to move around

Do you love your mind? 
How can you love mine, 
When I’m not trying to pretend that I’m fine?
Oh Nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing pulls me closer to the ground
Don’t want to move around

12 - Sage

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Oh Sage
You make my heart flutter like a bird in the sky
Oh Sage
You make my heart flutter like a bird in the sky
 
Oh Sage
Come to me when you are ready
And take your time, no need to hurry
I’ll be a part of your journey

Oh Sage
Come to me when you are ready
And take your time, no need to hurry
I’ll be a part of your journey

I know it’s hard to talk about
About how relationships all they do is tie you down
But my love runs deeper than the moment now
So go fly away like a bird in the sky
Like a bird in the sky
Oh Fly away like a bird in the sky
Oh Sage

But if distance ain’t the issue then why haven’t you loved me the same?
I’m such a fool to think you’d ever see me other than your friend.

And if distance ain’t the issue then why haven’t you loved me the same?
I’m such a fool to think you’d ever see me other than a friend

But oh woah
Woah woah

I’ll find a light on my own
To the beat of my drum
Don’t need you anymore 
Gunna live on my own

I’ll find a light on my own
To the beat of my drum
Don’t need you anymore 
Gunna live on my own

I’ll find a light on my own
To the beat of my drum
Sage
Come to me when you are ready
And take your time, no need to hurry
I’ll find a light on my own
I don’t need you anymore 

Sage
Come to me when you are ready
And take your time, no need to hurry
I’ll find a light on my own
I don’t need you anymore 

Sage 
Oh Sage 
You make my heart flutter like a bird in the sky
Oh Sage
You make my heart flutter like a bird in the sky

13 - Pierre (Don’t Give It Up)

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Mmm Do not give it up
Whatever you do, just do not give it up ohhh
There’s a pyramid scheme in your heart
I know that it’s tearing apart at your fears
It’s okay to be afraid
So that we can find the courage to say
There’s a miracle here, I swear 

Always keep it real
Hopping from my lily pads
Something isn’t right
Haunted from within my man
How can I go on when my heart is burning all my light?

Keep it emotional
Feeling like I know that
Even sociable 
Living such a lonely life
How can I feel just okay?
Nothing makes much sense these days

Always keep it real
Hopping from my lily pads
Something isn’t right
Haunted from within my man
How can I go on when my heart is burning all my light?

Keep it emotional
Feeling like I know that
Even sociable 
Living such a lonely life
How can I feel just okay?
Nothing makes much sense these days
How can I feel just okay?
Nothing makes much sense these days

You call it life 
I call it death
You feel alright
I feel like hell 
I never knew 
How bad it’d get
To feel like this 

Oh God help me I’m just not feeling okay  
Help me keep me from making a mistake
I can’t go on like this 
I don’t care who I’ll miss
I can’t imagine what it’s like to loose a friend like this 

Oh God help me I’m just not feeling okay  
Help me from making a permanent mistake
I can’t go on like this 
I don’t care who I’ll miss
I can’t imagine what it’s like to loose a friend like this 

I lost my angel Pierre
I lost my best friend Pierre
I lost my brother Pierre
I lost my son Pierre

I lost my angel Pierre
I lost my best friend Pierre
I lost my brother Pierre
I lost my son Pierre

For those of you out there, who are going through a rough time
Just want you to know that you are deeply loved
There are people out there who can help you
And who care about you
And I want you to know that it is not a sign of weakness to ask for help
In fact, it is a sign of strength

Mmm Do not give it up
Whatever you do, just do not give it up ohhh
There’s a pyramid scheme in your heart
I know that it’s tearing apart at your fears
It’s okay to be afraid
So that we can find the courage to say
There’s a miracle here, I swear 

14 - Leave It All Behind

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I see you running towards what you think is loving 
But you'll turn around to see you're leaving something behind 
I told you how I feel and you told me that it's real 
But you never came back, you just left me behind
I wish you were here to take my hand and disappear 
To our promised land, by now I would've thought you'd face your fears 
You're so black and white, so quick to leave my life
Just tell me what's the point to leave it all behind?

Oh, oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh, oh

Just recognize You're not in my life anymore, anymore
Just recognize You're not in my life anymore, anymore
Just recognize You're not in my life anymore, anymore
Just recognize You're not in my life anymore, anymore

You come knockin' at my door, why are you upset?
I don't need you in my life, what a mind set
I draw the line at the door, at the door 
You're too late, you're too late to fix that

You come knockin' at my door, why are you upset?
I don't need you in my life, what a mind set
I draw the line at the door, at the door 
You're too late, you're too late to fix that

But I never wanted to let you go 
I'll always love you wherever you go
But the deepest love is to let you grow
And finally call my body home

But I never wanted to let you go 
I'll always love you wherever you go
But the deepest love is to let you grow
And finally call my body home

The 4-7-8 breath is effective at calming because it activates the parasympathetic nervous system, which is responsible for the "rest and digest" response, counteracting the "fight or flight" response triggered by stress and anxiety. This technique also engages the vagus nerve, which can help regulate the heart rate and reduce stress hormones.

I learned of this meditation from two people: first- energy healer and teacher Jeffery Allen. In his courses, he teaches about what energy is, and how we can use it to benefit our lives. He is the first person who introduced me to the idea of a grounding cord.

Second is my own personal life coach Tricia Gast. Tricia is an Integral Coach, Teacher and Healer, and has helped me in many ways navigate the transitions and relationships in my life. She has helped me remember that I can set and re-set my grounding cord multiple times a day if I have to.

I love how when something is meant for me in my life, I’ll often be provided the same signal or information from multiple sources. To me, it is a confirmation that I should lean in, put my fears aside and be a student again, with curiousity and an open heart.

I hope you enjoy this simple grounding meditation. In the future I will build off of this concept of the “grounding cord” to allow ourselves to ground and release even deeper, but for today- I wanted to keep things simple.

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It is my mission in life to share my creativity and love with the world, and to inspire others to do the same. I believe in authentic expression- sometimes it can be ugly, sometimes it can be beautiful, sometimes it can be funny- but in the pureness of what is true, and in the discarding of judgement, something beautiful begins to form. Come as you are, perfectly imperfect. Lets take this journey together towards self discovery, towards healing, towards lightness, and towards the full embodiment of our true-selves.

Here’s a little more about me! I am David Schreiber, a musician, a facilitator, an engineer, a spiritual light-worker, and a lover of life.

Born in May of 1998, I fall into the third year of Gen Z’s to walk the planet. Today, I’m 27- a strange age where I feel both young and old at the same time. I’ve been producing music since 2015, for about 10 years now. I have found a deep love of creativity, using my hands, my ears, my voice, and my heart to express what I sometimes struggle to express in words.

Something else happened in 2015 besides starting my music career: my mother gifted me training in Transcendental Meditation (TM). At the time, this was the first real exposure I had to meditation, and I instantly fell in love with the act of calming my mind. The practice of TM is simple: it is repeating a mantra in your mind for 20 minutes, twice a day. The repetition of the mantra is meant to be a “distraction” of sorts for the busy mind to hold on to, while the rest of your consciousness “transcends down” into the stiller, more silent centers of the brain. Just like how the waters of the ocean are always calm at the ocean floor, even if there is a raging storm at the surface, our minds work similarly, and meditation helps us access that peaceful place.

Since then, my spirituality has developed. I have experienced many different types of means to connect with myself, with others, and with the universe, and I love the melting-pot that spirituality can be these days. I take what I like from each religion and practice and leave the rest. To me, pretty much every spiritual practice, dogma, religion, and philosophy is all trying to say the same thing. What this has left me with is an incredible sense of closeness to a source of oneness, to a higher power, to a God, to whatever you want to call it, even if you don’t believe it, for me, it is the guiding light to why I create.

Now I’m at a stage in my creative and spiritual process where I’m ready to share. I’ve been in the incubator, both creatively and emotionally, for years. I’ve moved through many tough periods of my life where I had to experience contrast and pain, loss and grief, love and disappointment. But all of this has led me here, to this moment. I feel all those feelings, even now, in the dichotomy of their existence, and I have stopped trying to fight them, or judge them. I can be messy! The human experience is messy! But I have found that I can simply just love it. I can love myself for not being the best, or for not doing everything perfectly. I don’t have to achieve X, Y, and Z, or be a mystic or a guru or a cultural leader or a pop star- or even just feel good - to be loved. All that matters to me at this point in my life is that I know that I’m enough as a flawed human, and that I can simply just laugh at the absurdity of all the years trying to fix that, and instead, I’ll just be me. I’ve just come to play and have fun and feel peace.

Welcome to my fun zen zone! Take solace in the knowing that you are enough here.

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Before I dive into the topic, here are some notes on the song for those who want to listen along.

• It is sung from multiple perspectives - first, those who deeply care about others safety, health and well-being; second from the perspective of someone feeling depressed and suicidal; and third from the perspective of friends and family members who have lost someone to suicide.

• I am not currently struggling with depression or suicidal thoughts myself, so please don’t assume that I am based on this song. I’m using music to tell a story that I believe needs to be told.

• During the piano intro and outro, the phrase “Do not give it up” is sung. This is about hope and care, not about shame. In fact, if there’s one thing I hope this song helps do, it’s to chip away at the shame that still surrounds mental health.

My first experience with Depression & Suicide

My first real exposure to depression and suicide was during my freshman year of college when my college dorm roommate became severely depressed as the year went on.

At first, the symptoms showed up as isolation- he would sit in our dorm room and listen to music, play video games, and watch YouTube- nothing out of the ordinary. But over time, his sleep schedule shifted drastically. I’d leave for class at 7am and he’d still be awake at his desk. I’d return at 4pm, and he’d be asleep.

Then one day, I returned to my dorm-room and he was holding a noose. He said “David! Look! I made a noose!” I immediately took it from his hands and went straight to our RA. About 15 minutes later, there were police in my dorm room, and they escorted him out of the room to a mental institution.

It was an eerie week. He basically took nothing, his sandals were still by the bed. When he returned, it was clear the system hadn’t helped him. He was delirious, and there were no real resources on campus or at the institution. Everyone just looked away. I didn’t know what to do. I cared, but I wasn’t a professional. Eventually, he dropped out of school. I haven’t stayed in touch, but that experience showed me how deep depression can run, and how unequipped our systems can be.

Additional Experiences

Since then, many of my close friends, family members, and partners have experienced depression. Each journey is unique, and each requires patience, care, and the support of trained professionals.

I’ve never personally been in a state of clinical depression, and I’m grateful for that. But I know how important it is to meet it with compassion and without shame.

In 2020, during my junior year of college, my friend Pierre took his life. His depression was much more hidden than my roommate’s. Looking back, there were signs, like an unexpected solo trip to Japan, but nothing that truly hinted at the weight he was carrying. We got the call from his mother one day. He was gone. This song is dedicated to him.

Later in 2024, a family friend and one of my dad’s closest companions also died by suicide. He left behind a wife and three children my age. We went on rafting trips together every summer. Again, it happened quickly, without warning. It was another reminder that you never really know what someone is carrying.

On Suicide Jokes, and why I take them seriously

One thing I’ve learned is that jokes about suicide are often a cry for help.

My roommate freshman year would joke to me “I’m better off dead” or “Why don’t you just kill me already”.

When someone says something like that, it’s often not a joke at all. It’s a sign of distress. Even when it’s masked in humor, that kind of language signals something deeper. That’s why I try not to tolerate suicide jokes anymore. I’m not always perfect at saying this, because it can be very uncomfortable in the moment, but I’ll attempt to say something like:

“Hey, if you’re being serious, I’m here for you. If you’re joking, I need you to stop because those words matter. And if it continues, I’ll have to get help.”

Removing the Stigma of Mental Health

We don’t judge people for catching the flu. We don’t shame someone for breaking their leg. But when it comes to depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, we often treat it like something to hide.

That stigma is deadly. It isolates people right when they need connection most. It teaches us to stay silent when we’re hurting or not to ask for help.

But here’s the truth: struggling with your mental health doesn’t make you weak. It makes you human. And asking for help is a signal of courage and strength.

Talking about it openly, honestly, and without shame, is how we change things. It’s how we create a world where people feel safe enough to ask for help before it’s too late.

If this song reaches someone who’s been suffering in silence, or helps someone feel less alone in their darkest moment, then it’s done what it was meant to do.

Lyrics from Pierre (Don’t Give It Up)

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Mmm Do not give it up
Whatever you do, just do not give it up ohhh
There’s a pyramid scheme in your heart
I know that it’s tearing apart at your fears
It’s okay to be afraid
So that we can find the courage to say
There’s a miracle here, I swear 

Always keep it real
Hopping from my lily pads
Something isn’t right
Haunted from within my man
How can I go on when my heart is burning all my light?

Keep it emotional
Feeling like I know that
Even sociable 
Living such a lonely life
How can I feel just okay?
Nothing makes much sense these days

Always keep it real
Hopping from my lily pads
Something isn’t right
Haunted from within my man
How can I go on when my heart is burning all my light?

Keep it emotional
Feeling like I know that
Even sociable 
Living such a lonely life
How can I feel just okay?
Nothing makes much sense these days
How can I feel just okay?
Nothing makes much sense these days

You call it life 
I call it death
You feel alright
I feel like hell 
I never knew 
How bad it’d get
To feel like this 

Oh God help me I’m just not feeling okay  
Help me keep me from making a mistake
I can’t go on like this 
I don’t care who I’ll miss
I can’t imagine what it’s like to loose a friend like this 

Oh God help me I’m just not feeling okay  
Help me from making a permanent mistake
I can’t go on like this 
I don’t care who I’ll miss
I can’t imagine what it’s like to loose a friend like this 

I lost my angel Pierre
I lost my best friend Pierre
I lost my brother Pierre
I lost my son Pierre

I lost my angel Pierre
I lost my best friend Pierre
I lost my brother Pierre
I lost my son Pierre

For those of you out there, who are going through a rough time
Just want you to know that you are deeply loved
There are people out there who can help you
And who care about you
And I want you to know that it is not a sign of weakness to ask for help
In fact, it is a sign of strength

Mmm Do not give it up
Whatever you do, just do not give it up ohhh
There’s a pyramid scheme in your heart
I know that it’s tearing apart at your fears
It’s okay to be afraid
So that we can find the courage to say
There’s a miracle here, I swear 

Thank you for listening to my music.

With love and gratitude,

Blossomoon

Have you ever felt so deeply drawn to someone that your heart flutters? And then as time moves on and the situation plays out, what is required of you is to release, not to add more pressure? This is what this song is about- the experience of working through love that has no ending to the story. The highs, the lows, the in-between, the constant hum in the background.

When you listen to this song, it will be apparent the emotions and depth. This is one of the first songs I've ever written fully on the piano and sang aloud before producing anything into my computer at a later date. I hope you enjoy the vast beauty that this song has to offer, and gives you a preview of the emotional depth of the upcoming album.

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Lyrics from Sage

Oh Sage
You make my heart flutter like a bird in the sky
Oh Sage
You make my heart flutter like a bird in the sky
 
Oh Sage
Come to me when you are ready
And take your time, no need to hurry
I’ll be a part of your journey

Oh Sage
Come to me when you are ready
And take your time, no need to hurry
I’ll be a part of your journey

I know it’s hard to talk about
About how relationships all they do is tie you down
But my love runs deeper than the moment now
So go fly away like a bird in the sky
Like a bird in the sky
Oh Fly away like a bird in the sky
Oh Sage

But if distance ain’t the issue then why haven’t you loved me the same?
I’m such a fool to think you’d ever see me other than your friend.

And if distance ain’t the issue then why haven’t you loved me the same?
I’m such a fool to think you’d ever see me other than a friend

But oh woah
Woah woah

I’ll find a light on my own
To the beat of my drum
Don’t need you anymore 
Gunna live on my own

I’ll find a light on my own
To the beat of my drum
Don’t need you anymore 
Gunna live on my own

I’ll find a light on my own
To the beat of my drum
Sage
Come to me when you are ready
And take your time, no need to hurry
I’ll find a light on my own
I don’t need you anymore 

Sage
Come to me when you are ready
And take your time, no need to hurry
I’ll find a light on my own
I don’t need you anymore 

Sage 
Oh Sage 
You make my heart flutter like a bird in the sky
Oh Sage
You make my heart flutter like a bird in the sky

Big news on the Blossomoon front: My next full-length album is complete and will be released on June 19th!

I've been talking about this album for years! Literally for 5 years. And honestly it has single-handedly blocked my creative output and my ability to release music in the meantime. (when I say I have over 100 unreleased songs, I'm not joking). But by the grace of God, IT IS DONE!

The album is called: "Navigating the Freefall".

And I LOVE the name because that is such a silly and funny thing to try to do. Imagine being in the middle of a beautiful sky-dive from an airplane, but suddenly being like - "no, I'm going back up, actually no, I'll go sideways, and then to the left, and then 400 meters north, but for God's sake I'm not landing until my life looks like it could be in a feature magazine, or I win America's Got Talent, or or or or..."

THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT I TRIED TO DO WITH THIS ALBUM!

I started working on this album right after I released my first album called "Bloom" all the way back in 2018. Navigating the Freefall went through a full 5 iterations, with the final version of the album featuring only a single song from the first version. Everything else was rejected through my perfectionist attitude and my "I'm-not-good-enough" mentality. I've been working on that, hence why its finally done.

But here's the truth: This album is just heavy. It has to do with unrequited love, mental health issues, addiction, depression, anxiety, suicide, grief and loss. There are moments of ups and downs, but it is just a heavy and deep piece of art.

I have not made anything quite so poignantly heavy since then, and I am certainly in a better place now than I was when I was personally going through these emotions between 2019-2022. I firmly believe that part of the reason it took so long to finish, and why I've held back from releasing it, is that it simply puts me in a lower vibration listening to these songs. It was simply hard to work on these songs and finish them. Now that I'm out of that space, I am proud of myself for not giving up and pushing through the fear of being seen.

All this to be said- the album is beautiful. It is touching. There are moments of hope. It hits all the notes of a cohesive piece of art, and yet it is plain and simply sad.

And that's what you'll find in this single from the album, called "Sage". All the above- beautiful, touching, hopeful, and sad.

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Next week, I will be back with another heavy hitting song from the album- one focused on the topic of suicide, which is a tough topic to talk about, let alone sing about. However, I do believe it should be less stigmatized of a topic, and more awareness around it should be brought to the forefront. If we were more okay about talking about suicide, perhaps more souls would still be with us on this earth today.

As always, thank you so much for listening and supporting my music!

David (aka Blossomoon)