Navigating the Freefall: OUT NOW!
My sophomore album is finally released after working on it since 2018
Well, here it is! I am so grateful to have the weight of this album off my shoulders. With vast synths, pianos, vocals, choruses and harmonies, this album captures a synth-pop vibe that brings you back to real problems we all face: mental health, addiction, grief, and love.
What is Navigating the Freefall?
Navigating the Freefall is what happens when one tries to control the uncontrollable. It’s a state of being afraid of the moment, of what is. It’s a lack of acceptance of what is natural. It’s a push against the grand design.
Imagine taking a leap out of an air-plane, but suddenly being like - "no, I'm going back up” and spending the rest of the sky-dive trying to make an effort to get back in the plane. “I'll go sideways, and then to the left, and then 400 meters north, but for God's sake I'm not going down!”
The irony of this album is that, not only do the songs capture this “out of control” feeling, but the album itself was an out-of-control freefall, and one that I tried to navigate and make perfect for years.
I started working on this album right after I released my first album called "Bloom" all the way back in 2018. It went through a full 5 iterations, with the final version of the album featuring only a single song from the first version. Everything else was rejected through my perfectionist attitude and my "I'm-not-good-enough" mentality. I've been working on that since, hence why the album is finally done. I said “Enough is Enough”, this is as good as it will ever be.
Deep, Rich, and Sad
But here's the truth: This album is heavy. It has to do with unrequited love, mental health issues, addiction, depression, anxiety, suicide, grief and loss. There are moments of ups and downs, but it is a heavy, deep, and sad piece of music.
Today, I am in a much better place now than I was when I was personally going through these emotions between 2018-2022, when most of the songs were created.
To be honest, it’s weird to release this album today. I don’t really resonate with the songs anymore- but that’s not the point of releasing it. At some point, I did resonate with these songs, and so if I can share something that connects to at least one other person through music - that is the point of sharing this album.
All this to be said- the album is beautiful. It is touching. There are moments of hope. It hits all the notes of a cohesive piece of art.
Inspirations and Thank Yous
Lastly, I wanted to share some of the musical inspirations and important mentions in the creation of this album:
James Blake - inspired the musical timbre of the songs “Who am I”, “Do You Love Your Mind”, and the vocals and songs throughout the album in general. Highly recommend his music.
Frank Ocean - inspired the musical timbre of the songs “Walk Away”, “Contagious”, and“Synchrodestiny”.
Tame Impala - inspired the musical timbre of the songs “My Love” and “Satisfaction”
Porter Robinson - inspired the musical timbre of the song “Together We’ll Grow”
Trayne Hulbert - a friend I made in San Luis Obsipo, who provided me with the name of the album, and many deep conversations on society, love, and the universe.
Adam Massini and Sage Bergerson - both collaborators on the album featuring their vocals in “Walk Away” and “December’s Song” respectively. Thank you both.
Shania - My ex-girlfriend who provided me with support, love, inspiration and many valuable lessons during the genesis of the album. Thank you.
Jonathan and Benjamin - my brothers who are not only inspirations to me, but both have musical backgrounds, and have put up with an immeasurable amount of times me telling them “I’ve got this cool album that I’m going to release soon”.
Danny Colfax Mallon - my piano teacher towards the end of high-school who told me I could make up my own song to play at the recital, as long as I wrote out the chord charts and made it into a real song. Thank you for giving me the space to explore my creativity on the piano. This is the result of your open-mindedness.
Nathan Sholl - My longest childhood friend who helped me develop my mixing abilities and listened to many demos of this album with valuable feedback. Nathan is a dubstep and bass producer under the name “Twizzled”
Jeff Minter - The reason why this album is being released. He was the one who listened to it in it’s final demo form in early 2024 and said- “David this is beautiful and needs to released. There’s some work to do, but it’s 90% there. Just do it”. Jeff produces music under the name “Circular Illusion”
Without further ado, I present to you:
“Navigating the Freefall”
1 - My Love
You’ve got the midnight moon Over your eyes Feeling love ain’t new For your eyes You’re my love, my love, my love x4 Loving you was easy when it’s love at first sight It never crossed my mind that it just wasn’t right Dived in deep and put my heart on the line But baby when will you get your body to love mine? Patience never hurt me when I see your light But baby I’ve been waiting every day and night Seems like your always caught up in your mind But if you have to think then the love ain’t right Oh, I love you for my life What do I do if you can’t love? But nothing will change your mind I’m fighting to feel alive I won’t let you walk on the line Cause nothing won’t change your mind Oh my love, won’t you be right by my side forever? But nothing will change your mind x4
2 - Walk Away
I know it’s just not your day Put your hands up and you walk away But I hate when I act this way Can’t control myself and I cause you pain In the water and I’m flowing and I’m sinking and I’m floating And I’m massive in this ocean it’s a whale of a time I have hydras in my poems But their loosing all that’s potent It’s secretion or avulsion I’m repairing my mind I had to take a trip, Let go of those who wronged me I had to get a grip cause I was feeling like a zombie Let go of what I lost and focus on what I’m becoming Be a phantom in the frost, or the moss that is evolving Evolving till the final forms Sedated now I’m sentient Been filling up my tanks It’s about time that I empty it I move with some acceleration Through the depths of hate with patience Feel this time is delegate I’ll hold on to my temperament And we pull up with the whole team I Ken Fulk no me We low key Been ill since ’03 We toasty So Clean I woke up and I chose me Oh I can’t lie I have something on my mind If, if, if you, you, need, need time and space Just just just just ask and I’ll walk away Walk away, walk away, walk away, walk away Take your time, Take your time, Take your time I’m Sorry! Walk away, walk away, walk away, walk away Take your time, Take your time, Take your time I’m Sorry! Ha! I feel trapped going through this maze and act And like I don’t know what to do while drowning in these artifacts These relics of a lost time, has to be a throw away Managing my time and space and I can’t wait to go away But oh delay this rosey place just overlays this golden state Looking for a hot meal but what I’ve got’s the coldest plate I chose to wait, it’s no debate, this ocean lake or river pond Spirals like a Cinnabon so till I’m gone I’m living on. And I’ve been trying to, just be myself around you But my heart’s beating faster, something is after us. I’ve been waiting waiting waiting, for this feeling you’ve been bringing But its fleeting fleeting fleeting, I’m just dancing around a feeling Let’s talk about it, not just walk away about it But it can’t be talked about if you can’t be around talk And why am I driving shopping carts into your babe? I’m tired of feeling like I need to compensate All I want is to feel like you love me the same But nothing seems to draw you in its driving me insane And we pull up with the whole team I Ken Fulk no me We low key Been ill since ’03 We toasty So Clean I woke up and I chose me
3 - Contagious
I never talk about How I miss our little conversations all night Bringing such delight X2 Down low, haven’t been shown How deep it really goes But I know that I’m awesome though And it takes time to grow Been waiting for so long now For your face to finally show Companions for life I know Waiting to love you I can feel contagious Never mind our ages If you’re vibing with the feeling in my heart Then it doesn’t matter how old we’ve grown apart does it? x2
4 - Niya
And I'm feeling all alone Searching for something to hold on And I'm feeling on my own Desperate for love's sensations And I was destined to love you And I love to spend my time with you Can we be in the purple space together? Forget that black and white is there altogether I love my life with you I want to know Are you all alone? And I've got to know Do you love me so? When it sounds like La la la, la la la, la la la I can taste the love It's okay, it's okay If our love doesn't break your bones La la la, la la la, la la la Pick me up when I'm feeling down It's okay, it's okay If you don't know how I'm here for you, darling Try not to smile Cause I know that it's not easy You and I we are flying Above the world at large Hovering over all the bullshit I'm here for you, darling Try not to smile Cause I know that it's not easy You and I we are flying Above the world at large Hovering over all the bullshit
5 - Who am I?
Another day goes by Another day goes by Where I am asking Who am I? Who am I? I feel paralyzed Like I'm in ice Can't feel my arms Can't feel my own eyes It's Who I am It's Who I am It's Who I am x2 Not gonna change for you Because it's who I am It's Who I am It's Who I am It's Who I am x2 I'm just confused as shit It's just who I am It's Who I am It's Who I am It's Who I am I'm just confused as shit It's just who I am
6 - December’s Song (feat. Sage Bergerson)
Silence at the first snow Violence out the window I watched you walk away and I asked you please don't go It's getting cold out there And the city lights don't shine in the fog They turn into balls of light and float away And which would you choose Between balls of light and a routine day? With either you can't lose But I'm either with you or I'm miles away Girl I miss you That's why it's so hard to say Girl I love you But I need to find myself today Today, today But you know that this tune's gotta bottle it up To wait, to wait, to wait for you In the springtime when the girls all come outside to play Where are you babe? Where are you babe? Where are you babe? And I'm wearing shorts and it's 45 and I'm at the bus stop And the slush outside on the street waves It's a waterfall and I'm sideways in my heart for you Why did you go? In the summertime when the girls all come outside to play, babe And I'm looking to the backs of people and I don't recognize a single one A single one And I'm trying to get away and get to you my babe I remember The way it felt like To hold another
7 - Satisfaction
Come a little closer, through the lies The pain never hurt this much to realize Come a little closer so I see your eyes I'm trying to hold back all of my lies I'm trying to hold back all of my lies Gonna fix my life, gonna get it on beat Why do I say that when I know I'll cheat? Gonna hit the vape, that's all I need Just to, to fall in satisfaction Gonna fix my life, gonna get it on beat Why do I say that when I know I'll cheat? Gonna hit the vape, that's all I need Just to, to fall in satisfaction Satisfaction Gonna live my life, gonna make mistakes Can I hit your vape, there's no escape Why do I say that when I know it's fake I do things just to fall in satisfaction On life it goes
8 - Together We’ll Grow
Well now's not the time Without hurting our best friend And I know it's hard to find the words to say It's okay, nothing comes that easily, babe Especially internal peace The only way is through it By embracing the aversion and working on it everyday Holding yourself in that way Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh I'm not at all a bit worried Cause I know in time we'll flourish Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh And even though you haven't told me I know that you love me deeply You and me I'll give you all you really need Together we'll grow old Together we will grow You and me We'll be dancing in our harmony Together we'll grow old Together we will grow
9 - Synchrodestiny
And everyday, it feels the same I’ve got a string attached to my heart Ah… I miss it The feelings of the sun rays upon me Oh what is going on? I text but you don’t respond What the hell is going on? Is it something wrong with me? Is this our synchrodestiny? And I know that, I know that I’m not the only one To feel like I just don’t belong And I know that, I know that I’m not the only one To keep holding onto all the pain that once belonged Oh-ooh, Oh-ooh x4 It’s time, I uncover the treasures of my shadow and guide me It’s time, I uncover the treasures of my shadows and let them guide me x3 Wo-ohhh, oh-ohhh x2 Hey yo! My life underway now. Independent kind of vibe till I say no. Gonna put my own stride on the street And ride that feeling in my life till the pain goes It’s the kind of vibe I’ll nurture Thoughts and patterns recognize the future It’s all fucked up at the park Haunted by the loneliness brought on by a Friday night Diving Turning Finding Waiting x4 I thought I knew the less I know the better it goes Too emotional I’m too emotional x2
10 - Red and Green
Black ephemeral beats I’m making fire You’ll understand, it long past ten Out to find an ocean to surround you Come back to me, its time for bed Red and green lights glimmer in the distance Upon our feet waves cash ashore Why can’t we talk about our distance? Between our beats, can’t last no more Finding cover deep within our shadows Finding cover deep within our shadows Navigating the Freefall Navigating the Freefall I hear voices in the distance I hear voices in my head like you It was never my discern To complicate things past return to darkness But Red and Green lights blink as distant rays of light, Bouncing off my heart into the silence But it was never my concern To complicate things past return to darkness But Red and Green lights blink as distant rays of light, Bouncing off my heart into the silence
11 - Do You Love Your Mind?
Oh-ohhhh Oh-ohhhh Do you love your mind? How can you love mine, When I’m not trying to pretend that I’m fine? Oh Nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing pulls me closer to the ground Don’t want to move around Do you love your mind? How can you love mine, When I’m not trying to pretend that I’m fine? Oh Nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing pulls me closer to the ground Don’t want to move around I don’t know why I am this way Anxiety crippling my day I’m so tired of living through my screen Comparing who I want to be Do you love your mind? How can you love mine, When I’m not trying to pretend that I’m fine? Oh Nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing pulls me closer to the ground Don’t want to move around Do you love your mind? How can you love mine, When I’m not trying to pretend that I’m fine? Oh Nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing pulls me closer to the ground Don’t want to move around
12 - Sage
Oh Sage You make my heart flutter like a bird in the sky Oh Sage You make my heart flutter like a bird in the sky Oh Sage Come to me when you are ready And take your time, no need to hurry I’ll be a part of your journey Oh Sage Come to me when you are ready And take your time, no need to hurry I’ll be a part of your journey I know it’s hard to talk about About how relationships all they do is tie you down But my love runs deeper than the moment now So go fly away like a bird in the sky Like a bird in the sky Oh Fly away like a bird in the sky Oh Sage But if distance ain’t the issue then why haven’t you loved me the same? I’m such a fool to think you’d ever see me other than your friend. And if distance ain’t the issue then why haven’t you loved me the same? I’m such a fool to think you’d ever see me other than a friend But oh woah Woah woah I’ll find a light on my own To the beat of my drum Don’t need you anymore Gunna live on my own I’ll find a light on my own To the beat of my drum Don’t need you anymore Gunna live on my own I’ll find a light on my own To the beat of my drum Sage Come to me when you are ready And take your time, no need to hurry I’ll find a light on my own I don’t need you anymore Sage Come to me when you are ready And take your time, no need to hurry I’ll find a light on my own I don’t need you anymore Sage Oh Sage You make my heart flutter like a bird in the sky Oh Sage You make my heart flutter like a bird in the sky
13 - Pierre (Don’t Give It Up)
Mmm Do not give it up Whatever you do, just do not give it up ohhh There’s a pyramid scheme in your heart I know that it’s tearing apart at your fears It’s okay to be afraid So that we can find the courage to say There’s a miracle here, I swear Always keep it real Hopping from my lily pads Something isn’t right Haunted from within my man How can I go on when my heart is burning all my light? Keep it emotional Feeling like I know that Even sociable Living such a lonely life How can I feel just okay? Nothing makes much sense these days Always keep it real Hopping from my lily pads Something isn’t right Haunted from within my man How can I go on when my heart is burning all my light? Keep it emotional Feeling like I know that Even sociable Living such a lonely life How can I feel just okay? Nothing makes much sense these days How can I feel just okay? Nothing makes much sense these days You call it life I call it death You feel alright I feel like hell I never knew How bad it’d get To feel like this Oh God help me I’m just not feeling okay Help me keep me from making a mistake I can’t go on like this I don’t care who I’ll miss I can’t imagine what it’s like to loose a friend like this Oh God help me I’m just not feeling okay Help me from making a permanent mistake I can’t go on like this I don’t care who I’ll miss I can’t imagine what it’s like to loose a friend like this I lost my angel Pierre I lost my best friend Pierre I lost my brother Pierre I lost my son Pierre I lost my angel Pierre I lost my best friend Pierre I lost my brother Pierre I lost my son Pierre For those of you out there, who are going through a rough time Just want you to know that you are deeply loved There are people out there who can help you And who care about you And I want you to know that it is not a sign of weakness to ask for help In fact, it is a sign of strength Mmm Do not give it up Whatever you do, just do not give it up ohhh There’s a pyramid scheme in your heart I know that it’s tearing apart at your fears It’s okay to be afraid So that we can find the courage to say There’s a miracle here, I swear
14 - Leave It All Behind
I see you running towards what you think is loving But you'll turn around to see you're leaving something behind I told you how I feel and you told me that it's real But you never came back, you just left me behind I wish you were here to take my hand and disappear To our promised land, by now I would've thought you'd face your fears You're so black and white, so quick to leave my life Just tell me what's the point to leave it all behind? Oh, oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh, oh Just recognize You're not in my life anymore, anymore Just recognize You're not in my life anymore, anymore Just recognize You're not in my life anymore, anymore Just recognize You're not in my life anymore, anymore You come knockin' at my door, why are you upset? I don't need you in my life, what a mind set I draw the line at the door, at the door You're too late, you're too late to fix that You come knockin' at my door, why are you upset? I don't need you in my life, what a mind set I draw the line at the door, at the door You're too late, you're too late to fix that But I never wanted to let you go I'll always love you wherever you go But the deepest love is to let you grow And finally call my body home But I never wanted to let you go I'll always love you wherever you go But the deepest love is to let you grow And finally call my body home
I cannot thank you enough for listening to my music and supporting me.
Thank you, thank you, thank you!
With love,
Blossomoon